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Had a near death sorta experience today.

Was at a roundabout in middle lane, lorry on my right, car on left. You can only go left or straight on. So guy in left hand lane decides to come into my lane without warning me forcing me to jolt right into path of a lorry which had to do an emergency stop to prevent t boning me, was literally an inch or two from my door. Proppa shit me up and through no fault of my own. :(

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Man, feeling a bit frustrated about the effects of my injury again. Spending two hours in continual conversation or trying to sort bureaucratic for the same duration leaves me hugely fatigued. The latter has just caused me a significant headache and intensifies my tendency of confusion, forgetfulness and an inability to concentrate. I don't think I've ever felt this sketchy in terms of constantly burning food, leaving the stove on for hours, dropping stuff, just saying sketchy stuff, etc. It disappoints me that I can't really read anywhere near the level I previously could. The area of academia I'm interested in I simply cannot cope with.

My tendency toward anger and irritability is slightly worrying as well. I've never felt an actual desire to fight before. It actually appeals in a sense beyond anger. Twice already I've nearly gotten into a fight but both times, fortunately, they've walked away before it's happened. I think I've also been aggressive and a bit thoughtless toward people around me. I'm finding my behaviour more difficult to judge at times and especially when I get tired which happens a lot.

Anyway, I don't really want to bore the people in my near vicinity with this stuff so I thought I'd bore the forum with my problems. I don't think it's even about people reading or responding. It's just good to get stuff out of me rather than holding onto it, init.

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Man, feeling a bit frustrated about the effects of my injury again. Spending two hours in continual conversation or trying to sort bureaucratic for the same duration leaves me hugely fatigued. The latter has just caused me a significant headache and intensifies my tendency of confusion, forgetfulness and an inability to concentrate. I don't think I've ever felt this sketchy in terms of constantly burning food, leaving the stove on for hours, dropping stuff, just saying sketchy stuff, etc. It disappoints me that I can't really read anywhere near the level I previously could. The area of academia I'm interested in I simply cannot cope with.

My tendency toward anger and irritability is slightly worrying as well. I've never felt an actual desire to fight before. It actually appeals in a sense beyond anger. Twice already I've nearly gotten into a fight but both times, fortunately, they've walked away before it's happened. I think I've also been aggressive and a bit thoughtless toward people around me. I'm finding my behaviour more difficult to judge at times and especially when I get tired which happens a lot.

Anyway, I don't really want to bore the people in my near vicinity with this stuff so I thought I'd bore the forum with my problems. I don't think it's even about people reading or responding. It's just good to get stuff out of me rather than holding onto it, init.

Sounds pretty shit, but better you type it out than let it pent up inside you.

May sound obvious, so I'm sure you have already done so, but how about talking to your GP. They might be able to point you in the direction of someone that can help, or at least be happy to listen to you.

Perhaps another silly suggestion, but how much exercise are you getting? Are you unable to ride at the moment? (I get angry if I haven't ridden in a couple of weeks, but I realise your situation is completely different!) Maybe try some different types of exercise if you can't ride. Swimming? Running? Or even walking?

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Why don't you put less into your savings?

because 250 a month covers insurance, new car, MOT, petrol, tax, and what not, thus when it needs an MOT i dont have to fork it all out at once i already have the money there, saved and ready to go sort of thing.

On the other hand my insurance has gone down so i might be able to look into that, thanks for pointing it out :)

@muel yeah pretty much :)

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because 250 a month covers insurance, new car, MOT, petrol, tax, and what not, thus when it needs an MOT i dont have to fork it all out at once i already have the money there, saved and ready to go sort of thing.

On the other hand my insurance has gone down so i might be able to look into that, thanks for pointing it out :)

@muel yeah pretty much :)

Sensible!

Man, feeling a bit frustrated about the effects of my injury again. Spending two hours in continual conversation or trying to sort bureaucratic for the same duration leaves me hugely fatigued. The latter has just caused me a significant headache and intensifies my tendency of confusion, forgetfulness and an inability to concentrate. I don't think I've ever felt this sketchy in terms of constantly burning food, leaving the stove on for hours, dropping stuff, just saying sketchy stuff, etc. It disappoints me that I can't really read anywhere near the level I previously could. The area of academia I'm interested in I simply cannot cope with.

My tendency toward anger and irritability is slightly worrying as well. I've never felt an actual desire to fight before. It actually appeals in a sense beyond anger. Twice already I've nearly gotten into a fight but both times, fortunately, they've walked away before it's happened. I think I've also been aggressive and a bit thoughtless toward people around me. I'm finding my behaviour more difficult to judge at times and especially when I get tired which happens a lot.

Anyway, I don't really want to bore the people in my near vicinity with this stuff so I thought I'd bore the forum with my problems. I don't think it's even about people reading or responding. It's just good to get stuff out of me rather than holding onto it, init.

In my experience with emotional issues, you kind of have to go with it. Push yourself to improve, but be patient, it's a learning curve and there will always be a time where things don't go how you want. However just realising that fact is a step in the right direction. It's just a case of breaking down the old emotional responses and creating new ones.

The fact that you feel like fighting but you stop yourself shows that you're on the right track.

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In my experience with emotional issues, you kind of have to go with it. Push yourself to improve, but be patient, it's a learning curve and there will always be a time where things don't go how you want. However just realising that fact is a step in the right direction. It's just a case of breaking down the old emotional responses and creating new ones.

The fact that you feel like fighting but you stop yourself shows that you're on the right track.

I'm mostly being patient but some days, just having not really been free of symptoms for 5 months now, it just gets a bit frustrating. I think it's about once a month I come in here to vent then I'm good again for a while :P I do recognise that things have, overall, gotten better even if I keep dipping back into various symptoms.

I do feel as though I'm having to learn again to be patient and learn, for the first time, regarding this appeal of aggressive behaviour. The trouble is that I often feel cut off from my intuition - my intuition is a significant guide in my life - and it makes understanding what I'm up to more difficult. Sometimes its not so bad but sometimes I can't work out what is right or wrong. It's a peculiar situation.

Sounds pretty shit, but better you type it out than let it pent up inside you.

May sound obvious, so I'm sure you have already done so, but how about talking to your GP. They might be able to point you in the direction of someone that can help, or at least be happy to listen to you.

Perhaps another silly suggestion, but how much exercise are you getting? Are you unable to ride at the moment? (I get angry if I haven't ridden in a couple of weeks, but I realise your situation is completely different!) Maybe try some different types of exercise if you can't ride. Swimming? Running? Or even walking?

My GP is well informed because I need her to be for university and the fact I've had to suspend studies. She's directed me toward various services. I should have done something about that but I haven't for some reason aside from the fact that most of the time I forget.

I've been doing a f**k load of exercise. Definitely helps so that's good advice you're giving there. I also visit the steam room which helps me relax. Sometimes my mood has no reason or rhyme but often it relates to just overdoing stuff that involves being social or conceptual. Having done research on knocks to the head it's pretty standard. I just have to ride it out I guess.

Thank you for both for taking the time to say shizzle though (Y)

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what the f**k your display picture...

NONONONONONONONO

This is my correct display picture. I had it for the first couple of years when I joined up, then lost it, and recently found it again, but had to wait for tomshit to fix the display pic upload again.

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I do feel as though I'm having to learn again to be patient and learn, for the first time, regarding this appeal of aggressive behaviour. The trouble is that I often feel cut off from my intuition - my intuition is a significant guide in my life - and it makes understanding what I'm up to more difficult. Sometimes its not so bad but sometimes I can't work out what is right or wrong. It's a peculiar situation.

I think I know what you mean

People in general seem quite lenient which can offer a bit of comfort with regards to responses in situations. I know it's not totally great to snap at people or let out some pressure but at the same time it's not good to internalise all of that. There is an adjustment period too with re-setting emotional responses to things too but the end result is progress and having a sense of the moral scale of things puts you ahead of someone who's rash and inconsiderate.

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This is my correct display picture. I had it for the first couple of years when I joined up, then lost it, and recently found it again, but had to wait for tomshit to fix the display pic upload again.

Oh okay, my bad.

Always thought it was donkey

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Rode nine miles in the rain yesterday to be told that they were actually looking for someone with more experience after all and had to ride back in the rain again. That wasn't that bad at the time though, was easier than walking it in the snow to get applications two weeks ago. But finally thought I got a little win today that put me in a good mood but that's gone now as well. Bleh.

And now I've dropped one of my M&Ms and it's rolled somewhere unknown to me, now things have really reached a low.

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