dann2707 Posted June 17, 2014 Report Share Posted June 17, 2014 All I want to do is ride but my foot is f**king killing me from a run the other night so I can't even walk. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
HippY Posted June 17, 2014 Report Share Posted June 17, 2014 after having a beautiful 2 days (= 1 day straight: horrible sleep, it was like half awake, half fever dream, while violently throwing up, even a cup of water, second day just general "Why am I alive" day) I think I am alive. but yeah, I am weak, tired, cannot eat properly. awesome 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
weirdoku Posted June 17, 2014 Report Share Posted June 17, 2014 Nah man, but our bikehut is falling apart it's terrible. Got the real verve though phoar what a beast http://i1.adis.ws/i/washford/660088?$pd_main$ I've worked in a Halfords Bikehut before, worst job I've ever had. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
bikeperson45 Posted June 18, 2014 Report Share Posted June 18, 2014 Probably going to ramble about not getting to ride trials, again. Avid readers of this thread will get a strong sense of deja vu. In terms of angry, was at a stupid work barbecue today which is definitely something I didn't want to go to but when they make it during work hours it's unavoidable, although one guy on my floor decided it was and apparently sat on a chair, computer off, doing literally nothing instead of going down stairs for a few hours. My dad's done this thing where he jokes about me having an annoying body in front of people which I really hate. Last time it ended with my doing a sarcastic laugh and saying 'yea you're sons misery, that's a good one' and walking off which left left the people we were with feeling appropriately uncomfortable. Basically I still have what I consider to be this massive threat of never getting to ride trials properly again looming over me all the time and doing a job that allows me to think, without any real distractions, all day it grates on me like I'm a tender piece of matured cheddar. Simile. I'm assuming it comes down to acceptance but I've just spend half an hour looking at the bikes on Tarty again. Plus there's this annoying irony that I can finally afford to get a new bike that I want after the past six years of settling for the best I could do second hand but now I can't ride. I'm so tempted just to get the bike I want right now. My tax rebate I got this weekend could cover it with left over and that was money I wasn't planning on having so really know harm done there, right? But a grand on something I'll potentially never use to reasonable potential is unnecessary but at the same time I'm thinking the bike represents future potential (English literature comin' atcha) in my mind and you can't put a price on optimism or just the idea there's something to look forward to. Overthinking ahoy, though on that note I had told my favourite friend I met in America that my Ashton was a physical manifestation of my soul and that's been locked to the outside of a shed over there for the past ten months having to withstand all the rain and blizzards they got this winter. My Pro II's had a terrible year. So that leaves me soulless. Metaphors. Unrelated, I still really hate the woman I sit next to. When she was talking today I thought that if she died and the manager came in and told us I would have to probably leave to hide my grinning face. That's real hatred right there. And I finally understand what guys mean when they say someone has crazy eyes. Eye contact with her is unsettling in a way horror movies have never made me feel, probably because I know she's not fictitious. Those crazy eyes are real and looking at something right now. Also I'm bored. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ogre Posted June 18, 2014 Report Share Posted June 18, 2014 However my doctor is an absolute babesaurus-rex. NewPipetm demands pictures. Angry because my right lat is f**king killing me, it has been hurting for a while, but it finally let off a week or so ago, but i'm right back to sqaure one again Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ben Cox Posted June 19, 2014 Report Share Posted June 19, 2014 Just had a stark realisation that my a fair chunk of my life revolves around social media! Facebook is currently down and i just tried to go onto facebook to ask if anyone elses facebook was down.... Derp. Ben 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ogre Posted June 19, 2014 Report Share Posted June 19, 2014 i've pulled my back and chest i am out of the pushup challenge after 14338 pushups Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
SamKidney Posted June 19, 2014 Report Share Posted June 19, 2014 Bored of my boss changing my pay more often than the wind changes direction. One figure one week, another the next. Eugh Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
HippY Posted June 19, 2014 Report Share Posted June 19, 2014 Just had a stark realisation that my a fair chunk of my life revolves around social media! Facebook is currently down and i just tried to go onto facebook to ask if anyone elses facebook was down.... Derp. Ben There is a reason why i deleted mine, and after a month i realised that i have more time a day and i did nothing productive or social there.. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
HippY Posted June 19, 2014 Report Share Posted June 19, 2014 (edited) On other notes Celebrated this school year with a pizza and beer and now im in a pub with a cider, pack of cigars and some C programming paper and coursework, alone it is shit to be an introvert sometimes Edited June 19, 2014 by HippY Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
bikeperson45 Posted June 19, 2014 Report Share Posted June 19, 2014 it is shit to be an introvert sometimes A real introvert wouldn't say that though Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
HippY Posted June 19, 2014 Report Share Posted June 19, 2014 A real introvert wouldn't say that though You know, i do like being alone, with my music, but times like these reminds me that i am not involved in many things, thay i can be only involved now, like having parties, nowing girls, give someone a call and hang out Instead i go to pubs to study as social activitiy and i have not done any proper friday or Saturday partying for a good while Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Blake Posted June 22, 2014 Author Report Share Posted June 22, 2014 18 in 2 weeks :/ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dann2707 Posted June 22, 2014 Report Share Posted June 22, 2014 Why are you sad about that being 18+ is f**king awesome. 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jake. Posted June 22, 2014 Report Share Posted June 22, 2014 I'm almost 19 and did a (most likely flawed) mental age test and the results said I was 13. You're only as old as you feel matey x Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Blake Posted June 22, 2014 Author Report Share Posted June 22, 2014 End of the road, time to grow up. Face a world I don't wanna be a part of anymore Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mark W Posted June 22, 2014 Report Share Posted June 22, 2014 If you work at it you can pretty much do your own thing though - you don't really have to just do the prescribed career schtick. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dann2707 Posted June 22, 2014 Report Share Posted June 22, 2014 Age is just a number mate. I'm 22 and do the same shit I did at 17 if not more, like I go out more than what I did. It's one thing I do not take for granted, being at the age where people respect you more and you can do what you want. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mark W Posted June 22, 2014 Report Share Posted June 22, 2014 27 here and the same kinda deal. I have more time to ride/do whatever now than pretty much any other time in my life. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Blake Posted June 22, 2014 Author Report Share Posted June 22, 2014 Just feel like every day I wake up I wished I hadn't, every year I get older I spend more and more time depressed. And now i've finally reached a stage in my life where I have to start taking things seriously if I want to have a decent quality of life, and i'm scared of what's to come Like, I don't know what to be or how to get it. I just want to feel happy like I did when I was 15 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ItsMatt Posted June 22, 2014 Report Share Posted June 22, 2014 time to grow up. time is to grow up, growing is a gradual thing pal think you're just shitting it over something you are going to do without noticing anywho x Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
SamKidney Posted June 22, 2014 Report Share Posted June 22, 2014 Just feel like every day I wake up I wished I hadn't, every year I get older I spend more and more time depressed. And now i've finally reached a stage in my life where I have to start taking things seriously if I want to have a decent quality of life, and i'm scared of what's to come Like, I don't know what to be or how to get it. I just want to feel happy like I did when I was 15 Pretty much how I felt. It gets better, but I'm probably not the best person to tell you haha x 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
HippY Posted June 22, 2014 Report Share Posted June 22, 2014 Just feel like every day I wake up I wished I hadn't, every year I get older I spend more and more time depressed. And now i've finally reached a stage in my life where I have to start taking things seriously if I want to have a decent quality of life, and i'm scared of what's to come Like, I don't know what to be or how to get it. I just want to feel happy like I did when I was 15 Honestly, I love being 18+ (nearly 20 here) I have responsibilities. I mean come on, I count, I must do something I am important! I know it is easier to do nothing, but yeah, it feels to be a part of the real world, not just having fun around, but really, be a part of it and then there are the good things. Driving cars, while blasting some Parkway Drive, go to a pub , grab a beer, study in the pub, meanwhile look at cute girls parties, if they ask if you are over 18 you are just like yeah, let me in No more request of parent permission. Wonderful growing up does not suck. it lets you have more pricey and bigger toys, while being someone who matters Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mark W Posted June 22, 2014 Report Share Posted June 22, 2014 You kind of don't have to "take things seriously" though, that's the thing. If you just kind of don't give a f**k about how other people do stuff you can make it your own way. As a completely random example, look at stand up comedians - there are quite a lot of professional stand ups who you won't have heard of, but who do enough gigs that they don't have to work a 'real' job and have a sustainable lifestyle. The concept of going up on a stage in front of a room full of strangers and trying to win them over and make them laugh, and doing that in such a way that you can do a bunch of gigs a week and have money to live on, is totally at odds to the usual "Get a 9-5, get a pension plan, get a blah blah blah" life people lead but it works for a lot of people out there. Then you get more entrepreneurial people who find a skill they have then make money from it (e.g. I've got a friend who set up a mobile bike repair service because he found there was a lot of people who rode to work in his area and couldn't/wouldn't take their bikes to a "proper" shop due to time constraints, so travels around fixing bikes and lives off that). I know another person who decided to learn to weld, and now runs a really successful frame building company and does loads of cool bespoke fabrication projects for people. If you've got something you give a shit about, now's a pretty good time to work out the different routes you could take then just try them out. You don't have a mortgage you've got to pay off, I assume you won't have a load of debts you need to pay off monthly and all that kind of shit so you're at a pretty good time to try stuff and see what happens. If it shits the bed you can just try something else and it won't really be the end of the world. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Tony Harrison Posted June 22, 2014 Report Share Posted June 22, 2014 Ha ha, compared to now being 18 was rubbish. I did 4 years of uni and then got 7 years into a post-degree 'career' before I threw it all away, and now I make far more money, pay far less tax, date hotter girls, live in a country of my choosing and generally swan around the world doing what the f'ck I like. Looking back, 18 was just about drinking, trying to work out how the hell girls think and having no money. If someone had told me then what I'd be doing over a decade later, I'd never have believed them for a moment. And, actually, in the end all you have to do to make it happen is believe... You have got a lot of time, Dr Stix, before you have to worry about growing up. By my reckoning you have approximately 22 years before you need to seriously consider anything like 'settling down'. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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