I'm with elding on this, you are a clingy bitch, you tell them all you love them, you get properly messy when drunk and cry or hit things. Seriously if any of my close mates were like that they'd get slapped to f**k, and I'd expect the same if I was like it. You need to just chill and slow down, just let shit happen. If it doesn't work out then it wasn't meant to be.