Straight Edge fo' life bro'! I might aswell be actually, went down the pub for a few drinks with some mates last week, more of a social thing. Did get pretty drunk though, had a good night! Anyway, I've had nothing to do this evening but think over this, whilst listening to Incubus and define their lyrics (they help me think over stuff) and I've started to worry about where I'm actually going? I've basically spent my life just 'seeing how it goes.' I messed up school. Without trying to sound big-headed, I know I'm a clever lad, but I don't have the papers/qualifications to say it. I spent my school life just larking about with mates. Never done homework, from primary school onwards! So I never did my coursework either, not at home anyway. I basically wasted a year at college too, doing a first diploma Media course. I lost motivation when I realised that I wasn't going to get anywhere with a first diploma, I'd need atleast the BTec - which meant staying at college for another 2 years! And I hated it after a few months! I've had one full-time job, which was as a car tyre fitter, and I didn't like that in the end. Coming home every night after a day of sitting around, or if we had a few jobs in, I'd come home filthy, and knackered. Spent the whole time there sat around with my boss who annoyed me so much! Sorry for my ramblings...haha! Basically, I don't have a clue what i'm good at anymore. Being able to do little bits in different things will get me nowhere by the looks of things, but I really don't know where I want to be in 5years or so. I've never wanted to be anything, like the 'I wanna be a fireman!' dreams you get as a child? I wanna be 14/15 again now.