^what he said, had it pretty much the same (less the shit childhood maybe) with my cat, chose him as a kitten when I was 4, had to have him put down when I was 20 when he lost the ability to even stand up, overnight... Was absolutely f*cking gutted Even though he was the skankiest, one eyed, bald patched, most irritating, dribbler of a cat, he was always up at 4am to talk to for half an hour when I came in fully blunted, always came and sat with me for a cigarette, always came and supervised while I tried to fix my car, always met me half way from the bus stop when I used to get the bus home from school... It's the shittest thing ever, it isn't just losing a pet, it's losing a best friend. You just gotta remember the good times and smile