Smo™

Thanks for all your help guys, you've all said something to help and that's important to me so I really appreciate your support. I knew I wasn't alone but it's nice to have the reassurance that you can find happiness without worrying about writing a paper on the effects of tourism on local culture.

It never lies >_<

My mum just gave me another bollocking for going out on my bike instead of ‘studying’ for my retake exams in January. I’m finding it a bit hard to cope now, if I want to achieve decent grades in these retakes (being taken at the same time as my first A2 modules) then I would have to be sat at a desk doing nothing but revision and homework/coursework for at least like 5 hours every night. I wish I could just tell her how little these exams mean to me. The only reason I care if I fail them or not is because I don’t want to hurt my parents. But it’s a bit late for that. They’ve done so much to get the best for me and all I can do is say how much ‘I don’t care about any of it’. I can’t even comprehend how much that must hurt them to hear that. No matter how guilty I feel, it still doesn’t change my perspective on my exams. Constantly I get bombarded with speeches about how important these exams are. I got bitched at for months about my GCSEs, then my AS levels, and now again with my A2’s. Granted I did shit all work and still got respectable GCSEs, I figured I could do the same with my AS exams. Big mistake. I got DDEU. Utter shite. When I opened the envelope I took one look and thought ‘well that pretty much reflects the effort I put in’. Naturally I didn’t give a f**k, slid the results back into the envelope and drove home to tell my parents the good news. My mother f**king cries every time she talks to me about it. ‘Words fail me Sam. I’ve put you before myself, even your father. I’ve sacrificed holidays, clothes, and god knows what. You name it, I’ve given it up for you, and you’ve rewarded me by never putting in any effort in your entire life at school have you?’ What can I say? The answer is ‘No’. I haven’t. I’ve never given a shit about school, exams or grades on a piece of paper. Believe me there’s no worse feeling than sitting there watching your mother cry out of despair because you’ve wasted away all she’s ever given you. It’s not that I don’t love her, my parents are the dearest people I know and I love them more than anything. No matter what happens, I just can’t bring myself to work hard at school. I can’t explain it, I just don’t ever try. I don’t understand it. There can’t be anything I can do that would express my sorrow for what I’ve done other than to work hard at school. But that’s the thing, I just can’t. I’ve tried but nothing interests me. Geography? Who cares. Geology? Who cares? ICT? Who cares? All I want to do is ride my bike and be happy. I just don’t have the balls to tell my parents that I’m not someone else (I constantly get told of the achievements of kids belonging to people my mum works with). I am who I am and I want them to be proud of me. I’ve said no to drugs, I don’t drink and I act sensibly. Being a good human being just isn't enough to get you through life. I'm a dreamer who desperately clings to the hope of a lottery win to save me from my bottomless pit of underachievement. My goals are so different to theirs, but it’s not so simple to explain. Sometimes I want to let it all out and tell them how I backwheeled 50” today and how chuffed I was with it. That won’t get me anywhere in real life though, will it? If I put that down on my CV when applying for a £60,000 a year job it’d get shredded. Why is it so hard for me to realise that I’m being childish? I guess I wish I could change.

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Ok.

Ditto.

Shame it was so short. Some nice riding :S

I think it's a bit weird that the snap happened next to the weld and not on it. Anyways, sucks mate, gotta get hooks dialled like Stan Shaw. Smooooooooth.

Unfortunately I was injured this weekend and couldn't make the ride today so I'm definately going to be at this one :turned:

Unlucky mate, but you get brownie points for keeping your cool. Next time rape the bitch, and don't forget to 'finish what you started' so no going easy B)

Shitcock. Shitcake. Gobshite.

If he switched his weight to the right, he'd do a sidehop-to-grate-your-elbows-on-the-floor.

:ermm:

Cock Feature.

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Ctrl+I (Y)

Tell them to get f**ked. If some dude said I was weird for not smoking, I'd let him know that the weird one is more likely to live to see his grandchildren, not stink, not give cancer to the ones he loves and finally not waste money on slow suicide.

I can only hope to get that good in my lifetime. :blink:

lol! That's f**king quality.

Awesome video, great fun to watch, really enjoyed it. Damon, you're turning into a bit of a monster! I'm now wanting your babies. Doesn't look like you're suffering from the brake rubbage problem much any more, can't say I'm rid of it. Out of curiosity what setup are you running? 05 Maggie and Hog rim by the looks of things? Anyway, top riding from everyone in the vid, good stuff guys :P

Sounds like a plan if it's a Sunday. Islanders may come along (Y)

I'd be willing to sacrifice some weight for durability, sure. I don't worry too much about it anyway.

All you need is longer bolts and spacers. Job done, no special treatment required.

I managed to kick that girl in the face three times during the time we were at school together, ever single one by accident :P